Flashback Friday (well sort of)

I'm sitting here at the computer with the littlest one asleep on my lap like a happy kitten, just waiting for the hubby to come home so I can get my feet and nails done. Ohhhh how I remember the days when all I had to do was to "just do it"! Not only can I not just do what I want but I have to wait on my slow azz hubby. Who "said" he was leaving work at noon. Maybe he mean noon "c.p." time *chuckle to self." I suppose things wouldn't be sooooo bad if I had family that was close and who had lots of free time. And when I say close, I mean like around the corner close. So that at least I can do the things that I need to do without having that "San Quentin" feeling.

I know what I need a dayum car. The hubby was suppose to be getting one for me but I don't know what happened to that plan, if he changed his mind, put it on hold, what? And as for a sitter of some sort. I know I keep going back and forth with the hired help thing but it's days like these when I really need to leave and I can't cuz I'm waiting on my hubby. And I can't just leave on public transportation (cuz I would) with 4 babies in tow. *shakin head* I'm startin to sweat just thinkin about that sh*t. Ohhh lawwwd *faint*

Then I was thinkin there is this Keith Sweat concert I want to go to (yes I still jam to his azz) at one of the local casino's up here (which there are many) and can't cuz I'm nursin and lawd knows if I tried to drive 10 miles by myself at night, I may end up in Canada. (which is very, very close to where we are in WA). I guess that "I need a vacation" feeling is catching up to me. It's not easy to put all your needs on hold indefinitely because you wanna do what you think is best for the kids. I'm tellin you the last time I've been out to dinner, with no babies was January. And the last time before that was January of last year and so on. So twice I felt like I had a break. *thinkin* [I really need to stop makin babies].

Dayum, I may just have to put a bug in my sister's ear about her and my niece moving back up here. I know that's bad. Wanting my sister up here so I can have some other family up here besides my babies and hubby. *chuckle to self* But I got that kinda sister. She'll move somewhere in a minute and ain't scared about driving around someplace and getting lost. (and yes I'm the "baby" for enquiring minds). Altho my hubby said if I wanted to go back to Cali he didn't have a problem with that. We'd just see each other on the week-ends. *thinking* How many families voluntarily do long distance relationships? I know folks in the military do it but what about folks who have "regular" jobs? Just wondering.

Anyway, my azz just rambling, it be like that sometimes. I was kinda feelin in that "back in the day" mood but decided against postin some old azz pics (I wouldn't wanna scare nobody) cuz ya gurl was kinda "hoogie-fyed" back in the dayz and didn't care. LOL. Dayum my azz done had kids and become "born again." What's up with that? *chuckle to self.* Okay folks that's all for me.

*hugs* - Mama Alyson